We moved this past year. My husband retired and we decided to relocate. We moved to a new house with new neighbors, in a new town and found a new church.
It has been about a year and we still feel unsettled. We feel a longing to be known.
To have someone look at us with eyes of recognition. To know our names and ask about our kids.
I long for community.
…To have people know my name and ever so much more,
…To know I enjoy music and art, taking walks, a good cup of tea and auctions.
…That I have a sense of humor, am a pretty good cook and can be a fiercely loyal friend if given the chance.
I want them to know my heart aches from old wounds and some not so old. Things you can’t blurt out when you are just getting to know someone. It takes time…lots of time.
So, as I struggle to fit into our new community, I look expectantly to someday heaven. It will be a place of perfect acceptance, a place without longing.
I’ve been told a place is being prepared. (John 14:1-3) A just right place, a perfect place, a belonging place that isn’t uncomfortable. A place without an awkward adjustment period.
I imagine being greeted with a bear hug by the God who was unapproachable and untouchable in the Old Testament accounts. (*see below) Now he has promised to wipe away my tears. (Revelation 21:4)
I will be immediately known and loved. Not because I am good, but because I belong to a great King who purchased my freedom at an awful price. (I Peter 1:18 & 19)
He saved me even knowing who I would be and what I would do. Loved me in spite of all of it. Why? For a purpose, to worship and serve Him.
He will integrate me seamlessly into the heavenly community; giving me a job that suits just me. One where I can contribute and feel helpful.
He will delight that I am there, at home with Him. At home with the one who has loved me since the foundation of the world. (Matthew 25:34)
And all of this will fade away. For I will be home at last.
* God told Moses – “No man shall see me and live.” ( Exodus 33:20) ; Some men from Beth-shemesh looked into the ark and they were struck dead along with 50,070 others. (I Samuel 6:19); Uzzah was killed for touching the ark (2 Samuel 6:6-7)
Such a lovely post that starts out with a feeling of uncertainty about being at home in your new neighbourhood, and ends with a feeling of reassurance. Thank you, Karen.
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Thank you, Cynthia. I do hope you are continuing to get better. Praying you get stronger every day.
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Thanks very much, Karen.
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I loved this Karen. Community we all need but not many have it. I’m praying you will find your place in the new community so that your light can truly shine. 😊
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Thank you, Levi. Prayers are always appreciated. Hope you are doing well. It has been a long time.
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I’m doing very well, thank you. It has been awhile.
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Ok, I’m a member of your new community, and I know all about your wonderful qualities, and I’ve been meaning to have you and your dear sister (the local one), over for coffee and lefse forever! My daughter’s health crisis appears to be nearly over. Let’s set a date!
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I have thought of you often, Tamara. You have been overwhelmed. I suspect we will both have time once we have a schedule and school has started up. I would love to come anytime, but know you are welcome here too. Just waiting for the word for your daughter to feel well enough to come along as well.
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We love you and Bill. May God bless you with rich community in His time.Thank you for this sweet reminder of what is in store for us–this is a blessing to think about in this chapter of our lives.
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Thank you, Mellie. Miss you and Reagan. Arianna mentions your kids now and then. Come visit anytime. The lake is full of fish.
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So good Karen and so true!! Finally after 6 years in Nashville we have great community. Takes time, time, time!! But what a great reminder of how perfect and wonderful heaven will be. We will all be united again!! Miss you!!
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Oh, Angela. How good to hear from you! Glad to hear you are settled in there. I know it takes time. Just sending you an e-mail…let me know if it doesn’t show up.
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