We moved this past year. My husband retired and we decided to relocate. We moved to a new house with new neighbors, in a new town and found a new church.
It has been about a year and we still feel unsettled. We feel a longing to be known.
To have someone look at us with eyes of recognition. To know our names and ask about our kids.
I long for community.
…To have people know my name and ever so much more,
…To know I enjoy music and art, taking walks, a good cup of tea and auctions.
…That I have a sense of humor, am a pretty good cook and can be a fiercely loyal friend if given the chance.
I want them to know my heart aches from old wounds and some not so old. Things you can’t blurt out when you are just getting to know someone. It takes time…lots of time.
So, as I struggle to fit into our new community, I look expectantly to someday heaven. It will be a place of perfect acceptance, a place without longing.
I’ve been told a place is being prepared. (John 14:1-3) A just right place, a perfect place, a belonging place that isn’t uncomfortable. A place without an awkward adjustment period.
I imagine being greeted with a bear hug by the God who was unapproachable and untouchable in the Old Testament accounts. (*see below) Now he has promised to wipe away my tears. (Revelation 21:4)
I will be immediately known and loved. Not because I am good, but because I belong to a great King who purchased my freedom at an awful price. (I Peter 1:18 & 19)
He saved me even knowing who I would be and what I would do. Loved me in spite of all of it. Why? For a purpose, to worship and serve Him.
He will integrate me seamlessly into the heavenly community; giving me a job that suits just me. One where I can contribute and feel helpful.
He will delight that I am there, at home with Him. At home with the one who has loved me since the foundation of the world. (Matthew 25:34)
And all of this will fade away. For I will be home at last.
* God told Moses – “No man shall see me and live.” ( Exodus 33:20) ; Some men from Beth-shemesh looked into the ark and they were struck dead along with 50,070 others. (I Samuel 6:19); Uzzah was killed for touching the ark (2 Samuel 6:6-7)